Today is a special day for us! Today is Brad's one-year "clean" anniversary! No porn for a whole entire 365 days! I never knew for sure if this day would come, but here it is.
We are planning on going out for supper tonight to a tablecloth restaurant (I just learned that term, aren't you proud?) and yes we are taking the kids. After the horrendous stomach virus the two kids have had, I just didn't feel right asking anyone to babysit. So, as Brad said, his recovery was/is a family thing, so why can't the whole family celebrate? Now the kids won't know why we are going to a non-playplace restaurant, but Brad and I will. Oh, we definitely will.
I would like to say that this year has not been easy for my husband. He is still on a rollercoaster of emotions, but the ups are not as high, and the downs are definitely not as low. He still admits to struggling with the images in his head and the thoughts that bombard him each and every day. Hopefully one day even this will go away, but for now he is learning to redirect his thoughts and give his thought life to the Lord.
I am thankful for all the people who have helped Brad. First and foremost, God, who has never left us nor forsaken us. Next, to his accountability partner who talks to him at least once if not twice a day, and also to the guys in his group. If it weren't for them, I really, really don't know if Brad would have ever made it.
The last 2 years have been the hardest of my life. And I don't fool myself to think we won't have more setbacks, more disappointments, and maybe even more d-days, but as for today, I'm happy.
Now starts the countdown to 2 years clean!
Monday, January 19, 2009
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