Seminary or Bust

My hubby sent off his application for seminary yesterday. This in itself is great.....I really do feel like he is following God's call in his life. Finally! However, as always, my mind goes to the following questions: What will my family think? How will we pay our bills? Will we have to move to a cheaper place? Is this really God's will for us? Hubby has applied online for several part-time jobs and we are waiting to see what happens with those. Please pray for God's guidance in all of this. I keep telling myself to trust in Almighty God. He will never leave us nor forsake us, right?

Let me try to tackle the question, "Is this really God's will for us?" I am still struggling with this, but I have learned to keep my eyes and Spirit open to affirmations God sends our way. For the last several weeks, hubby and I were feeling like God brought us to this great place and showed us a glimpse of how our future would be if we followed Him, and then it was as if He withdrew His presence and we could feel nothing. Absolutely nothing. We were in the desert so to speak. So, I started praying for another affirmation in order for me to know without a doubt this is the right path to walk.

So here's what happened: After church, a few of us were standing in the parking lot and one of the girls just burst out with the request for us to pray for her. She stood there through tears telling the ones of us around her about her struggling marriage and asking what she should do. Funny how those "touchy-feely" situations make some people so uncomfortable. A few people just sort of wandered off and the ones that were left were me, the pastor, and eventually the pastor's wife walked up as well. We talked for a long time, and I don't know if I said anything to encourage her other than this. I care and more importantly, God cares. I held her hand as the pastor prayed.

Okay, this is how slow I am. It was not until the drive home that it dawned on me that perhaps this was in fact an affirmation. Yes, God was saying, Yes, Amy, take my hand and I will lead you.

When I got home, I could barely wait to tell hubby. He was bursting to tell me about CR and how it had been so very soothing to his hurting soul that night. When he was done and I shared my experience with my hurting sister, it was like we just knew. We knew this was our calling.

He mailed his application two days later. There are still alot of unknowns, and honestly, that does send a panic through me.

And, as you well know, whenever you get on fire for God and get that deep-in-your-sould determination to follow Him no matter what, Satan sits up and takes notice. He wasted no time in our case......hubby and I got into a pretty good fight last night about what else? Sex.

I think you are probably tired of reading, and I need to get back to the typing I actually get paid for. I will post tomorrow about our fight, but just so you know, we did make up :)