Is this sexual addiction stuff for real?
I'm having a conflict within myself right now so bear with me. This is what I want to know: Is my hubby an addict or just an idiot?
When he chose to look at his first Playboy at a friend's house-idiot.
When he chose to continue looking at Playboy magazines-idiot.
When he chose to keep his porn problem from his future wife-idiot.
When he chose to cheat on his future wife with another girl-idiot.
When he chose to amass great credit card debt due to online porn sites in college-maybe addict.
When he chose to continually look at online porn after marrying-addict.
When he chose to look at online porn while he was at home alone with his children-addict.
When he chose to spend money on porn from an adult bookstore and do who knows what else while in there-addict.
When he chose to watch porn in hotel rooms while on business trips, right after calling me to say good night and he loves me-addict.
When he chose to change jobs every 2 years due to the increasing fear of being caught looking at porn while at work-addict.
So this little exercise answers my question I suppose. He is an addict with idiot roots.
(Before you all get too upset, let me say this. I have learned enough in the past year-and-a-half to know things aren't always this cut and dry. He had things happen throughout his life that made him more susceptible to becoming an addict. But I also know there are people who have been through much worse that never turned to porn addiction or any other addiction to cope.
Well, I still love my idiot/addict husband and I guess I always will. So what does that make me?
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