Just Some Thoughts

I'm tired so this might be short. I took on an extra doctor to transcribe today so I'm just finishing up. Hubby is already in bed. He's tired too. This week and weekend is the hardest of the year for him. They have a festival/fair/arts and crafts event at the park and he will be working late every day this week plus all weekend (except Sunday I hope, being its Mother's Day and his mother will be in town).

Daughter is getting sick and son is on punishment for blatantly disobeying me twice Monday afternoon. This is his first real grounding...no friends over, no TV, no PlayStation, and no computer for three days. I think it's been quite pleasant, he thinks he is going to die.

I hope everything is going well for you. I want you to know that God loves you and He is the only one who will never leave you nor forsake you. I also want you to know that even though my hubby and I are not in the "muck" of his addiction at present, I can so remember what it's like. In fact, it's scary how certain things can trigger my emotions and send me in a tailspin right back to the bottom of the pit. Thankfully, those triggers are coming alot less often. Hubby thanked me the other night for supporting him through all of this. I thanked him for being committed to his recovery. Even though he has had his slip-ups, I know that he wants this recovery more than anything in the world. And that is what keeps me here. I remember in one of our very first counseling sessions, the counselor asked me if there was one thing I needed to know from hubby. I said, "I need to know he is in this. I need to know he is fighting for us." For some reason, that has really stuck with hubby. He doesn't refer back to the specific counseling session, but every now and then, he will tell me that he is still fighting and he is not giving up. That is so reassuring to me, and it makes me feel a calm inside. It's when he stops fighting that we have serious problems.

If your hubby is seriously committed to his recovery, then you have great things to look forward to. It does get better, trust me. It does not happen overnight and it does not come easily. But it does get better. We started on this journey in November of 2006 and I dare say we are near the end. In fact, I think this battle is only over when we hear, "Well done, my good and faithful servant."

Okay, so much for being short. Thanks for reading. Feel free to e-mail me at any time! I'd love to hear your story.